DAY 1 ~ JUICE FAST

I weighed myself this morning, in all my glory.  

I was actually less than I thought... that wasn't a bad feeling.  However, the bad feeling WAS all through my digestive track.  I woke AGAIN with a terrible tummy ache and abdominal pain, soreness everywhere.  Of course I did, I indulged and binged on my drive-thru faves last night ~ as something of a "farewell-sending-them-off party".  I definitely hid it and behaved in a way that I just don't want to live.  Didn't even enjoy it, but felt the need to make sure I did it. ...........

So yeah, after my little bit of a recent weight loss, I'm no longer close to 150 lbs. ---which, at my stature of 5'1'', seems quite frightening, considering that weight had every chance of climbing higher and higher every single year, if I let it.

This morning, May 9th 2012 -- 139.4 lbs.

I'm typically happiest and feeling my best when I'm around 110-115 ... fluctuating up to 120 here and there, but naturally falling back down to 110 without thought.  That seems to be my bodies normal HEALTHY functioning range.  I've occasionally fell to 105 as well ---but that's no kind of 'goal' in my mind.  I'd love to have a little muscle weight as well, and tone, strength.  ENERGY.  But today, one step at a time.  I'm going to focus on clearing out my system of everything I've been clogging it with.  Detoxing from my continual binges.  Starting with a juice fast.  I've fasted before, but this time it will be a little different.  I'm certainly not going to starve myself.  I will get plenty of nutrients from my variety of fresh juices - and if I'm ever at a point that I feel I NEED a break - I may incorporate a light, raw, meal in the evening.  I'm almost anticipating that on the 3rd-4th day.  I don't want to be hard on myself, that's not what this is about.  It's about mental and physical healing - hand in hand.  Not about deprivation ~ about GIVING.  I hope to enjoy it (even though, I realize entirely that the symptoms of detox aren't comfortable).

I ended up just deciding to go with a juice that Natalia Rose shares in her RAW DETOX DIET book.  I've loved this juice in the past.  I made enough to last all throughout today.  Tomorrow I'll go for a new flavor.  Today, savor this one :)

Green Lemonade:
2 Sweet Apples
1 Lemon
2 heads of Romaine
5-6 sprigs of Kale
1 inch of fresh Ginger

ALSO ~ as a fun little tidbit, I broke out the dehydrator yesterday.  There's some fruit leather drying right now ------ but I saved the pulp from the apples (which was kind of chunky) --and am going to come up with a fun 'Raw Apple Pie' recipe ---- really excited.  I'll share pictures ;)

Oooooh.  Speaking of pictures.  Gawd help me, but I'm gonna have to post a starting point shot of me ----dreading the thought, yet TRYING to embrace it.  I'm gonna put on my bathing suit... eek.  Photos.  I'm gonna let it all hang out too, no suckin it in, lol!  Gotta be REAL WITH YA, you know?  Andddd gotta be real with ME, most of all.

Alrighty, here we go!  Day 1, juice only.